The Comeback Kid

I'm pretty sure there's a movie with that title: The Comeback Kid, or maybe I'm thinking of The Karate Kid. Who knows?! I could surely do a quick google search to put an end to this unknowing and remove any possibility that I'm making no sense at all, but, alas, no desire. To err is human, or so they say.

So, I'm making a comeback. In fact I'm making multiple comebacks right now.

Numero uno: come back to the blogoshere. (Why? Well, because it was fun and fruitful while it was going on and why give up something fun and fruitful for the reason of "I just got busy"--that's lame)

dos: come back to HEALTH. define it how you want but this is what I'm talking about...
                 honesty-truthfulness, especially with myself
                 equality-daily recognition of every single person's egual worth regardless of health, accomplishments,  or material/social status.
                 accountability-being responsible for my own actions and feelings. I must acknowledge that I make my life and the universe is not just going to plop happiness and joy in my lap. I must make a life worth living.
                love-compassion and acceptance--for myself and others.
                trust-reliance on god.
                humility-the desire to seek and do god's will.

tres: come back to living my life. sounds simple, sure, but I promise it's not.
            I realized this summer that I spend time with some people who I call friends but really only because they are the friends of another friend. And there has been a lot of stress amongst those friendships. I'm done fighting for their friendship--if it's there, it will continue naturally but if its not there I'm not going to try to make it happen any longer.
           I'm learning confrontation skills and I am making decisions. I went through this phase of apparent ambivalence. I said 'I don't care' when asked where or what I wanted to eat or do but only because I was afraid of voicing my true opinion and offending or not meshing with someone else. I'm tired of living the life I imagine other people want me to live. I get this one life and I don't want to continue wasting it.

Clearly, I'm in a you-go-girl type of mood right now, but I swear, this is happening. It's happening slowly but with the encouragement and challenge of those around me and a hell of a lot of perfectionistic determination, I'm beginning to choose to make my experience in this world into some life I feel is worth living.

TTFN.