Forms of 'to be'

As a freshman in high school, I had to write an English paper without using any form of the verb 'to be.' Am. Is. Are. Was. Were. Be. Been. Being. <--Take a look at some really solid words there. Thankfully, the assignment was only a paragraph, about a page in length, but still, I've tried writing this entry to this point without using those words and have failed. Even a few sentences excluding all forms of 'to be' take a concentrated effort to compose. 

That's not my point.

I'm just thinking that 'being' somehow describes every stage of life. 

Where have you been?

Places you don't want to know about.

Where are you now?

I don't really know. 

Treading water is some great expanse of water, perhaps.

Where are you going?

Please, Lord, guide me.

These are some of the questions that plug up the 'free space' in my mind these days. Today especially. 

We were having one of those conversations--the kind that go in circles with long silences and little eye contact. 

The conclusion was made that there may be some things I need to walk away from. These are things that are holding me back when I literally have unlimited potential. These are things that paralyze me in fear when I have the world resting at my fingertips. I need to walk away. It sounds all nice and dandy, I thought, but its not really realistic. I want it to be, but simply desiring it won't make that a reality. If I walk away from these things, I'll be walking toward something else...ideally. If I don't walk toward something else, I essentially walk off a cliff. And we've all watched enough cartoons to know what that means.  I need to know what direction to walk when I walk away. I need to know where I'm going. I don't need all the answers but I need a little hint. 

Pray with me. Pray that I find a way to let go and walk away. Pray that it be revealed where I need to end up. And pray that until that is revealed, I can just be.