Wednesday, October 31, 2012

the 3 D's

Back when I swam for Shannon Dunworth, he sat the team down for a "come to Jesus" meeting of sorts regarding our goals and motivation. What he said centered around what he called the 3 D's of success:

DedicationDetermination
Desire

These three have similar cores that give them a similar purpose. Dedication, Determination, and Desire propel you to dig real deep when you are stressed or tested or just plain tired. Some people see it as stubbornness or inflexibility or pride--and, granted, sometimes it is--but mostly there is a force from deep inside you pulling you toward something.

One who is dedicated knows knows every day is not her best day but that every single day counts. The dedicated student does not procrastinate or cheat or do just enough to slip under the radar. The dedicated athlete does not spend her time distracted or wishing her body felt more able or making excuses. Those who are dedicated are consistent and reliable. Each night, it is their fortitude that is rejuvenated through rest.

One who is determined sets goals with the intention of meeting them. This determined individual knows herself well enough to know her capabilities. Her goal is one step beyond the point at which she knows she will want to give up. Her dedication to herself and her goal keeps her from sitting on the sidelines in fear. Determination holds a person to a higher standard or excellence, not perfection, but excellence. This excellence results from knowing one's capabilities and never settling, for a determined individual knows that "to settle for less than your best is to willingly surrender a part of yourself that could have been."

One who has desire knows nothing of complacency. Desire fuels the drive for greatness. For it is "only those who dare to fail greatly [who] can ever hope to achieve greatly."

In January 2012, I tied on my shoes the same way I've tied them for years but I had a different reason this time. I wanted to see if my body was capable. I was not going to push myself beyond what my body was capable of but I was willing to push myself beyond what my body was comfortable with. I didn't sign up until March 1st because I needed time to listen to my body. I thought I could do it, I listened to my body, and I did it. On April 16, 2012, I completed my first half marathon.


On June 6th, I sat on the couch wondering if I could do more. Still unsure, I decided to, again, listen to my body. I thought I could do it, so I would try. On June 6th, I signed up for the Rock N' Roll Savannah half-marathon which would take place on November 3rd. I had every intention of running a full marathon but I wasn't sure if I was capable. My plan was to start out training for the full but not put my money on it (literally) until I was sure. After a solo 12-miler after 6 hours of work that began at 6am, I was sure and so I did the upgrade. The marathon is in 2 1/2 days and I am struggling to hold on to that certainty. I've trained with all 3 D's but I'm still wondering if that's enough. I was dedicated--I ran when I was tired and when it was too cold and too hot. I was determined--I started the long runs with Kelsey with a plan (finish) and a go-get-em attitude. And I had desire--even after being put in a stability boot with a stress fracture 2 1/2 weeks ago, I've continued to run because I want this. I want this for me. I am proud of myself and I want to finish the job. But I'm scared. 

"I'll be there to help 
whatever is left of you 
at the finish line. 
Either way, 
you're going to cross that finish line, 
even if it's on my back" --Nathan Blair 

people say running is an individual sport. Clearly, those people aren't runners. 

Sunday, October 28, 2012

Green Bean Obsession

OMG!

As I sat in the Cincinnati airport waiting for the plane to arrive last Friday, my friend Marissa sent me an almost hysterical text message. She told me about this restaurant that is simply TO DIE FOR.

It's a giant salad bar...




That's my kind of bar!

It should be called Emily and Marissa's. The restaurant is actually called Green Bean and it's located in St. Louis' Central West End. All the meat and most of the produce is locally grown--that means its as fresh as fresh gets and your purchase is contributing to a more sustainable food economy.

I'm seriously obsessed. Marissa and I went after work on Thursday and our salad creations were as beautiful as they were delicious.

Field greens, asparagus, roasted red pepper, tomato, onion, pineapple, and tofu
I forgot to mention--their dressings are all homemade! 
(that means no gluten, and that means I had dressing on my salad!)

You may not believe me when I say I'm obsessed, so here's a story of obsession...
12:18pm 
(E) I WANT GREEN BEAN
(M)...don't even get me started. I TOLD YOU THAT YOU'D CRAVE IT 24/7!
(E) It's going to take a lot to keep me from going after I get off work at 2.
(M) Don't even resist it. You'll be more upset not going than if you did go. Wayyyy too good to pass up
(E) It's times like these when I sincerely love you for enabling me.)
12:30pm 
(M) I like to think of myself as the conscious that everyone is missing.
(E)Aww, good. I'm loving my thoughts about this future salad...
(M) I expect a picture with a full description. Ooo and try out as many dressings as possible!
(E) Oh, yes, I'm already planning.
1:04pm 
(M) I'll be needing the full scoop on your adventure there
(E) Less than an hour till I depart!
(M) 55 minutes and counting!
(E) Having a difficult time containing myself...
1:33pm 
(E) 30 minutes
(M) 26 minutes...
1:55pm 
(M) Umm 6 MINUTES
(E) Mouth salivating
(M) Guarantee your legs are twitching.
(E) Yeah, I can't even sit down.
(M) I don't know if the people are Green Bean understand what they have done to us. I'm not even going to green bean in 4 MINUTES and MY mouth is salivating.
(E) Ahhhh. I'm ready!!!!! (sitting in the ready position, with my jacket and sunglasses on, ready to leave)
(M) Conquer Green Bean!!!! 1. Create 2. Try dressings 3. Send txt for your punch card 4. Send me a picture 5. DEVOURRRRRRR.
2:15pm spinach and field greens mixed, roasted red pepper, cucumber, corn, onion, chicken, and lime dressing


Friday, October 19, 2012

Break time

HAPPY FALL BREAK!!!
that means no school for the next 4 days...and because my long runs are over, that means I'm free to actually take a break.

Good life choice--
no school
no work
no St. Louis
no computer
no meetings
FOR FOUR DAYS!

#stoked

And wanna know something else cool?? I'm in the Charlotte airport right now and took a plane that I've never taken before to get here. It was the kind that you have to walk outside to get on--walk up the steps and everything. I don't know why I think it's so nifty but I do so do with it what you will.

See you in a few minutes Kelsey!


Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Pumpkin Chocolate Chip Raisin Cookies

DUDES! These cookies are unlike any other cookie.
These cookies are...
gluten free
dairy free
soy free
[added] sugar free
nut free
and can be egg free if you want

How'd I do it?
magic,
duh.

Ask my parents, I've never been fond of measuring and following recipes. That's probably why it's safer to let me cook than bake, but because of this gluten free, dairy free lifestyle my doctor has mandated for me, if I don't bake for myself no one else will. So I've been experimenting.



It started with the usual culprits:
2 1/2 c. almond flour
1 1/2 c. pumpkin puree
1/4 c. egg whites
1 tsp. baking soda
1/2 tsp. xanthum gum
1 tbsp. pumpkin spice
as many chocolate chips as you desire
as many raisins as you desire


1. preheat oven to 350 degrees.
2. In a large bowl, mix together dry ingredients.
3. Whisk in pumpkin puree egg whites. And mix in raisins and chocolate chips.
4. Plop spoonfuls onto cookie sheet, spread with fingers (no butter means they won't spread themselves).
5. Bake 12-15 minutes.
That was easy.